yay yay! i think i m gettin a wee bit better at bladin. i used to haf this naggin pain in my left foot - but today i managed to correct the mistake i think. im happy.
i will be startin work at royal bank of canada this sept - will work out the exact date come mon. cant help it - 6 months it has to be. =( but i get to keep my dreads. =)
im losin my lust for exercise now that tibet is off the agenda.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
I dreamt i cut my hair
i dreamt i had my hair cut. I was so sad. But i hope to keep my hair for a long time. Wishful thinking but im just hoping. Coz i really love my hair although the majority of pple here dont.
okie the deal for me here is that i may have to forgo my year-end trip to Tibet. (WHY?) I am so damn upset. How often does one get to backpack Tibet and Nepal and China without any worries in the world? But then again, the people closest to me dont want me to go. =( Not like I care very much, but I am starting to realise that I have a responsibility to be accountable for myself, for the sake of others.
WHY? Becoz i need to start work. as predicted i am falling prey to societal norms and pressure. I guess there is a reason why Singapore is successful with its model of society, and perhaps to a large extent, how we do things are rightly justified. and now, really, i am under pressure to get something done wif my life. that is the problem. everything has to be done in a certain manner becoz its the way of life here, everyone does that, and everything is explained by pure logic which is somewhat bullshit to me.
1) Do not take unnecessary uncalculated risks. Why? Becoz it is stupid to put your life at risk.
But: Different pple have diff levels of risk tolerance - and to me I live life only once. And life becomes so complicated if you take into account the rights of others. Anyway, i think i have a lot to learn on tis.
2) Work your fucking ass off now so that you can do what you want in the future.
But: I think what if this person doesnt live to see the next day? I think we have to relish memories in the past, live in the present to the fullest, but also work towards the future. Not work for the future. The problem is that some pple work so much now in hope of a better future, but why cant we enjoy the present and the future, and not over compromise the present's happiness to buy a better future.
okie the deal for me here is that i may have to forgo my year-end trip to Tibet. (WHY?) I am so damn upset. How often does one get to backpack Tibet and Nepal and China without any worries in the world? But then again, the people closest to me dont want me to go. =( Not like I care very much, but I am starting to realise that I have a responsibility to be accountable for myself, for the sake of others.
WHY? Becoz i need to start work. as predicted i am falling prey to societal norms and pressure. I guess there is a reason why Singapore is successful with its model of society, and perhaps to a large extent, how we do things are rightly justified. and now, really, i am under pressure to get something done wif my life. that is the problem. everything has to be done in a certain manner becoz its the way of life here, everyone does that, and everything is explained by pure logic which is somewhat bullshit to me.
1) Do not take unnecessary uncalculated risks. Why? Becoz it is stupid to put your life at risk.
But: Different pple have diff levels of risk tolerance - and to me I live life only once. And life becomes so complicated if you take into account the rights of others. Anyway, i think i have a lot to learn on tis.
2) Work your fucking ass off now so that you can do what you want in the future.
But: I think what if this person doesnt live to see the next day? I think we have to relish memories in the past, live in the present to the fullest, but also work towards the future. Not work for the future. The problem is that some pple work so much now in hope of a better future, but why cant we enjoy the present and the future, and not over compromise the present's happiness to buy a better future.
10 August 2005
My mind screams for help.
Citigroup. Goldman. Royal Bank.
Job. Pay, Branding, Prestige.
Theatre Passion Challenges
Love Joy Time Friends
Home. Feet to ground.
Caught up in norms vs What I want,
What IFs?
Friends moving on:
Evalation and pay increment.
Overseas - Hongkong Happy.
Fuck, I am so confused.
My dreams descend from the clouds.
Citigroup. Goldman. Royal Bank.
Job. Pay, Branding, Prestige.
Theatre Passion Challenges
Love Joy Time Friends
Home. Feet to ground.
Caught up in norms vs What I want,
What IFs?
Friends moving on:
Evalation and pay increment.
Overseas - Hongkong Happy.
Fuck, I am so confused.
My dreams descend from the clouds.
Saturday, August 06, 2005
Ruby says my hair looks cleaner
Life has been great.
If you ask me what i have been doin, my days have been largely, going out with friends, family, and siblings as well as working out. Not forgetting, eating. Had my fairshare of sashimi buffet, ice-cream, pratas, seafood, satay etc.
Trying to keep some activities that i picked up Austria, such as cycling, cooking and relaxing. Am blading, rock climbing and going to Dad's office every once a week, teaching tuition and drama relief when it comes along.
Looking back on my goals which i had stated in an earlier post, well, only one thing has been worked upon - which is training for my year-end trip. My Lasalle and horse-riding dreams have to be put on hold. Money is the main issue here. oh yes, and German classes too! Am still trying to pay off some bills and still save from scratch for my passport to China!
I have almost nearly stopped smiling at random people on the streets - although i still do it from time to time. Like today at Sentosa. Yes, i am still obsessed with the beach - and the sand and the waves and the carefree spirit. Ruby said my hair looked cleaner, =) after the dip in the saltwater.
Met up with some Austrian friends yesterday - two were tourists and one here on internship. They loved Singapore - largely for its food, cleanliness and cosmopolitan mix. Food i realised is indeed part of our culture! At everywhere I brought them sightseeing, from Esplanade to Boat Quay to Chinatown, we were never 3 minutes away from food! its quite crazy i realised. it is a national obsession.
If you ask me what i have been doin, my days have been largely, going out with friends, family, and siblings as well as working out. Not forgetting, eating. Had my fairshare of sashimi buffet, ice-cream, pratas, seafood, satay etc.
Trying to keep some activities that i picked up Austria, such as cycling, cooking and relaxing. Am blading, rock climbing and going to Dad's office every once a week, teaching tuition and drama relief when it comes along.
Looking back on my goals which i had stated in an earlier post, well, only one thing has been worked upon - which is training for my year-end trip. My Lasalle and horse-riding dreams have to be put on hold. Money is the main issue here. oh yes, and German classes too! Am still trying to pay off some bills and still save from scratch for my passport to China!
I have almost nearly stopped smiling at random people on the streets - although i still do it from time to time. Like today at Sentosa. Yes, i am still obsessed with the beach - and the sand and the waves and the carefree spirit. Ruby said my hair looked cleaner, =) after the dip in the saltwater.
Met up with some Austrian friends yesterday - two were tourists and one here on internship. They loved Singapore - largely for its food, cleanliness and cosmopolitan mix. Food i realised is indeed part of our culture! At everywhere I brought them sightseeing, from Esplanade to Boat Quay to Chinatown, we were never 3 minutes away from food! its quite crazy i realised. it is a national obsession.
Monday, July 25, 2005
The Build-up
24 July 2005
The build up lasted for days,lasted for weeks,lasted too long.Our hero withdrew,when there was two,he could not choose one,so there was none.Worn into the vaguely announced.The spinning top made a soundlike a train across the valley,fading, oh so quiet but constant til it passed,over the ridgeinto the distanceswritten on your ticket to remind you where to stop,and when to get off. - The Build up by Kings of Convenience
I ve been at it for days,
I dont know what to do.
Its only a phone dial away.
I saved it in my drafts.
Listening to the songs she burnt
The issue is what to do
What to say
How to react.
I am nervous,
I want, yet I dont.
I didnt think it would be
So hard. Breathe.
The build up lasted for days,lasted for weeks,lasted too long.Our hero withdrew,when there was two,he could not choose one,so there was none.Worn into the vaguely announced.The spinning top made a soundlike a train across the valley,fading, oh so quiet but constant til it passed,over the ridgeinto the distanceswritten on your ticket to remind you where to stop,and when to get off. - The Build up by Kings of Convenience
I ve been at it for days,
I dont know what to do.
Its only a phone dial away.
I saved it in my drafts.
Listening to the songs she burnt
The issue is what to do
What to say
How to react.
I am nervous,
I want, yet I dont.
I didnt think it would be
So hard. Breathe.
Sunday, July 24, 2005
SMU Commencement 2005!
Well, i was excited on the day of commencement wed 20th july 2005. i am glad i came back for my folks and for graduation.
Yes - my parents were proud recipients at the graduation ceremony alright!
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/beggarthyneighbour2001
/album?.dir=/e229&.src=ph&.tok=phr6lWDBisb_Wbd_
has more shots of me beaming wif joy.
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Thoughts on the MRT in Singapore
It had been nearly one week since i am back. It had been great being home - short of fantastic. Somehow, i am trying to adapt. Not too hard. Just adjusting to the familiar sights that I have long taken for granted.
Every minute a handphone sounds
In this not so homogenous MRT
Happy at the @ the multi-diversity and
our people who are accepting of differences.
Looking at the landscape,
Really takes visual adaptation .
Familiar facades of green plants and HDBs
Ply the rail route.
Hardworking people in action
At every corner.
In Singapore when it rains,
Hardly does it ever dip below 25 degrees .
Ever vigilant of terro attacks,
even Europe is not on.
Every minute a handphone sounds
In this not so homogenous MRT
Happy at the @ the multi-diversity and
our people who are accepting of differences.
Looking at the landscape,
Really takes visual adaptation .
Familiar facades of green plants and HDBs
Ply the rail route.
Hardworking people in action
At every corner.
In Singapore when it rains,
Hardly does it ever dip below 25 degrees .
Ever vigilant of terro attacks,
even Europe is not on.